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Wrongness [May. 24th, 2011|11:35 pm]
Kelly J. Cooper
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Just wanted to jot down a couple of thoughts on things I suspect are either broken in my head or related to the brokenness:
  • Boredom is worse than death
  • Can't count more than 3 zeroes or 3 ones without using my finger to block them out/count them off
  • Attention span is short
  • Time is wicked fluid and seems to grow and shrink
  • I have a lot of difficulty estimating how long something will take so I am always late
  • I have no idea when things happened; coulda been 3 months ago, coulda been 3 years
  • No sense of my own self
  • Constantly scanning around me; eyes drawn to movement
  • Concentration on things is hard, unless I love it
  • If I love something, I concentrate so hard I literally can't understand the words people say until I've fully detached my concentration from the object of my attention
  • Aphasia
  • Can't remember names or dates for crap
  • General memory problems with miscellaneous data; can only really remember data if it has a plot line, then I never forget it
  • Depressed & unmotivated
  • Pile things up
  • Forget stuff that's out of my sight
  • Lots of procrastination
  • Complete & total lack of recognizable (or neat) organization
  • Broken self-esteem
  • Lack of physical coordination
  • Lots of daydreams
  • Hypersomnia & general fatigue
  • Anxiety
  • Feelings of being an extreme outsider
  • Hypersensitivity to some social cues; oblivious to others
  • Difficulty with impulse control, particularly when it comes to buying things
  • Dislike of traditional feminine stuff (make-up, uncomfortable clothes with no pockets, hair-do effort, uncomfortable shoes)

Don't freak out. I'll try & list things I'm good at tomorrow or later in the week.

[User Picture]From: gem225
2011-05-24 11:56 pm (UTC)
Thank you for this list. I'm not in all of these, but some of them, and it helps to have them here. Not freaking out for you, my friend - so proud of you for listing these. It couldn't have been easy, and you rock for doing this! Hurray for you!!!
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[User Picture]From: earthling177
2011-05-25 02:07 am (UTC)
Not meant to contradict you or anything, but for me, when I'm at the point of having trouble counting a series of digits like you mention, it's time for me to set an appointment with the eye doctor -- I'm getting to that stage again and it happens every 3 years or so. As soon as the new prescription lenses arrive it gets better (I have astigmatism). It might not be your case, but it might be worth a try.

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[User Picture]From: wonderreader
2011-05-25 07:44 am (UTC)

wrongness thinky things

Can we re-frame some of that as your normal - especially the part about concentrating and not understanding someone until you disengage - sounds normal to me. Also - time is wicked fluid.
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[User Picture]From: gilana
2011-05-25 08:35 am (UTC)
Some of that might be a matter of degree more than a binary thing. Lots of those things don't sound terribly abnormal to me, although I'm willing to believe that the extent to which you experience them is a problem.
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[User Picture]From: kimberlogic
2011-05-25 09:12 am (UTC)
For whatever it is worth - many of those things don't seem abnormal to me. Also, a few of them sort of make me wonder if you've had your eyes checked?

And I love you just as you are ... you do many things well and I hope you put being a good friend on the next list.
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[User Picture]From: drwex
2011-05-25 10:36 am (UTC)
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