||[Sep. 15th, 2008|03:22 pm]
Kelly J. Cooper
The question isn't "Who are you?"
The question is, "Who do you believe yourself to be?"
SO MUCH JMS
"Who are you?" corollary: "Who do you think you are?" or "JUST WHO do you THINK you are?"
"What do you want?" corollary: "What the hell do you want THIS time?"
"Why are you alive?" corollary: "What difference is your life making?" or "I thought I killed you already, what does it take?"
OK, random associations done.
"Who are you?" when asked of oneself, vs. "Who am I?" when asked of an objective observer who has spent some time observing.
Or if politics gets involved, "Who are you trying to sell yourself as?"
Yes, this is the point I wanted to make--I think both questions are interesting, but they're both relevant, separately and in connection to each other.
I found that I hit a new point at 35 of having enough data on myself to discern a bunch of patterns that had been previously hidden from me. I look forward to more of that.
I believe myself to be me.
Oddly enough, I don't know many people who answer the question like that. Or maybe it's that who are comfortable answering it like that....
"I am $DREAM"
"I am $JOB I WANT TO DO"
"I am $JOB I HATE, DAMMIT"
"I am $TASK TO BE DONE FOR THE WORLD TO GET BETTER"
What about "Who do you want to be?"
What I believe myself to be and what I am are constantly rearranging themselves in interesting patterns. I've finally gotten to the point where I believe I am fairly stable but there are still random edges so I often sit back and see what patterns I've acted out today and go "oh! That's who I am today! Is that who I want to keep being tomorrow?" and adjust accordingly.
Whatever I say I am is just a realization in the moment. I try and watch my own actions to get the real clues and to be aware of whatever they are and to maintain the ones that support who I want to be, the most.
Not sure that answered anything.
good question for me to ponder ... longer comment later (on borrowed net from greece at the moment)
miss you and hoping you are having a good week