|Steps Forwards, Steps Back
||[Aug. 31st, 2008|04:04 am]
Kelly J. Cooper
I was reading Johnny's List and decided to check out his "Cross Into the Abyss" blog. Then I read his Philosophy, and then the About page.
And something he wrote at the bottom of the About page struck me.
Fixing my life was going to be my new Project.
And as I poked around the rest of his page, reading about the garden I watched them construct, I was thinking about that idea, fixing my life as a project.
One problem I have is with completing projects. Even here, on this bloggy, I don't finish stuff. I never typed up the last set of Neil Gaiman notes. I gave up on status blogging my day or my week. I lost interest in posting bits of fiction. Once I'm distracted, or it becomes a chore, or I forget and catching up requires a time investment... I just stop.
Also, although my life is probably "broken," I would rather imagine it as ill-fitting, in need of tailoring. Or perhaps a well-used room that needs to be updated and made useful again. Because the idea of BROKEN is depressing and because there is no "fixed" state for yer life. Fixed implies that you've finished, and life just keeps going, whether you want it to or not, with or without you.
But still... the idea of a my life as a home improvement project, with a plan, a bunch of goals, maybe even a budget... it's very appealing.
I'm going to think about it more.
Meanwhile, if I hired you as a contractor to upgrade my life, what would you do? How would you suggest we go about it?