|A Good Sign
||[Aug. 27th, 2008|02:00 am]
Kelly J. Cooper
Today (well, Tuesday), when I woke up (around 2pm-something; I went to bed stupidly late), as I was lying there, listening to silly stand-up, I asked myself my regular post-waking half-conscious question, "Why get up?"
The usual answer is a sort of impression-based version of, Can't think of anything worth leaving this bed... Let's roll over and go back to sleep.
Today, the answer was, *mental shrug* Why not?
So I did.
2008-08-28 05:10 am (UTC)
Hey, that does sound like a good sign! Mine, when there's nothing else going on I'm getting up for, is some version of "'cause I'll end up feeling like crap physically and emotionally if I don't."
It's when I realized that unless I'm sick, I don't usually feel any better if I stay in bed past a certian point, that I started getting up more regularly, just as a matter of preventing having to fix feeling later.
It's often only after I've been up and a little caffinated that I figure out what I'm going to do with the fact I'm up (or, say, remember I have a job).
2008-08-28 05:14 am (UTC)
You're more disassociated when you wake up (er, than I am).
I have enough clarity to know about things like appointments & jobs, but it's like there's a veil between me and reality such that when sleep is (usually) the preferable choice, I know those things are there but they're not really important.
Or time gets all squishy, which is disturbing.
I've had to get back into the habit of telling myself, over and over, as I fall asleep, that the meeting is important and I MUST GET UP for it. That helps.
But, when I don't have something I MUST GET UP for, going back to sleep is always the easier and more comfortable choice. (I don't suffer ill effects from sleeping until after 14 hours or so...) So getting up when I had no particular reason to was kind of a big deal.
Edited at 2008-08-28 09:14 am (UTC)
I found that having kids was a remarkable accelerator to the getting up process.
Mmmm. warm bed, nice pillow, snuggle warm WHAT'S THAT NOISE?
Or, even worse
Mmmm, warm bed, nice pillow, drift drift ... wait, what? what time is it anyway? WHAT ARE THEY DOING I DON'T HEAR ANYTHING!
"We need more milk."
"Didn't I just buy milk yesterday?"
"We need more paper towels, too."